Thursday, September 17, 2009

He Leadeth Me

Ok friends. I've decided its time you heard the whole story. It has not come to a conclusion yet. But I think.. its time. Here is an e-mail I sent to friends and family that were praying/walking with us a couple of weeks ago in this HUGE change happening in our life. It tells the first part of the story. It is dated September 4, 2009.

Hello family and friends!

Most of you know that Andrew and I have recently been looking for houses in the smyrna/murfreesboro area because we feel like that is where God is calling us to put down roots.

Again most of you know it has been a challenge to get a loan for a home because we are both self-employed. However as one of our teaching pastors says, the Lord's history with His people is full of "But God". We were able to get a loan through a bank in the Boro. Our approval letter is dated August 10th (our original anniversary) and we received the letter on our 2 year anniversary the next day.

We were gone and unable to really walk through the loan and what would be required of us until this past Tuesday. We met with the man assisting us and we walked away feeling much more confident and went straight to meet our realator and friend, Tanya, to look at a few houses.

The next time we went to physically look at houses at all was day before yesterday, Wednesday the 2nd. The first 2 homes we went to were good homes but one of us, Andrew or I, were left.. off by the house. We pulled up to the 3rd house and before we even got inside, Andrew wanted to know what I thought. He really liked the neighborhood and the location (which was a shock to me bc I loved it to!) It all just went up from there. We both loved the house.

On our way to see a 4th house, Tanya had called the realator for the house we liked to ask her a question. It had only been back on the market a week from having a contract on it. Tanya was concerned as to why their contract had fallen through. It had nothing to do with the house BUT someone had called in an offer on the house that very morning.

So Tanya, Andrew and I talked and prayed in the kitchen of the 4th house we were supposed to be looking at about what we should do. After running numbers, lots of discussion and prayer, Andrew and I put an offer on the house that afternoon.

Last night, Tanya called to say that the owners wanted to hear the "highest and best" from each of the potential buyers. Tanya said we should hear something late tonight or in the morning.

Within an hour, Andrew called "we got the house." :)

Some of you knew this already and were praying and waiting with us over that intense 24 hour period, some of you were clueless but had been praying through this journey. Now we are asking for your prayers again.

The home inspection is on Monday at 4:30. (Amazing to me someone would work on Labor Day for us...AND its Andrew's birthday- what a gift that would be!!) Could you please pray that God will continue to guide every single step we take? If the home inspection reveals something that says this is not the house for us, as Alicia so wisely shared with me, that is God's protection of us. Pray we see His will no matter the outcome. We are so grateful to experience this no matter what because His glory is all over this process. I know its silly but I am just so blown away how intimately He reveals that He is a God of details. He cares about our house, our neighbors, our commute to work.. Truly everything is in His oh so capable hands.

Would you please pray these words would be true of us no matter what? Whether this house is it or He has just gone through this process with us to show us He is trustworthy in ALL matters; we truly desire to be obedient, faithful and trusting to His ends.

"Commit to the Lord whatever you do and all your plans will succeed. The Lord works out everything for His own ends." Proverbs 16:3-4

"He will have no fear of bad news; his heart is steadfast trusting the Lord." Psalms 112:7

"For I know the plans I have for you, 'declares the Lord. "Plans to prosper you and not to harm you; plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11

Please keep this as private as you can. We covet the prayers, but you all know how hard it can be to come back with... not bad news... but a change of plans to multiple people who may not know the whole story. If you don't mind, if you want to share this with others, just shoot one of us a text or email and ask 0:) We appreciate your grace, love and understanding so so much.

We are so grateful for you, more than you'll ever know :)
-Andrew and Em

OK so, that was then... and this is the one I sent today.

Hello sweet friends and family-

Well., needless to say it has been a crazy couple of weeks!! Since the last e-mail I sent, we were preparing for the house inspection. The house inspection actually went REALLY well. The house is 16 years old so there were a few things that could be expected, but the few things that we really wanted them to fix they agreed to take care of!

So… all was set to close tomorrow, BUT it seems that the appraisal is taking a while to get back. So… not tomorrow, but Tuesday. Our friend and realtor thinks that everything is going to be OK because the sellers want this to work out AND they’ve agreed to come back for Tuesday. (They’ve already moved out of town.)

We really believe this is the house God has intended for us. He’s asking us to trust Him yet again (doesn’t He everyday?). In this, I just keep thinking about something God revealed to me through Beth Moore’s study of Esther. When Esther was faced with her choice to approach the King, she had to choose courageous faith. Something Beth talked about to us was that courageous faith is not living in denial that our worst fears could come true, its living in the reality that they could and very possibly might, but that God will still be on His throne. She had us fill in blanks for realizing our worst fears that looked like this: If______________ then God _________________.

For those of you who have bought a home before, this very well could be just part of the process, which if it is, awesome. But even if it is just “part of the process” Andrew and I want to invite the Lord to lead that, and more importantly lead our hearts in that. I want my courageous faith statement to say if this house is not the one and we lose it then God protected us, STILL has a plan for us, a BETTER house for us and He is just as present in this closed door as He is in open ones.

This may seem silly to those of you who have maybe done this before… but for me… I don’t want to think of it as preparing for the worst… I want to think of it as preparing for what is HIS best. Either way, inviting Him constantly into this situation, HE receives the Glory either way. HE is the source of the celebration and we are amazed at His wondrous works or HE is the comforter. HE is the author of life. "He will have no fear of bad news; his heart is steadfast trusting the Lord." Psalms 112:7. HE is still on HIS throne.

So even if your prayer sounds like “Dear Jesus, I pray for Emily to get a grip and take a note from her always calm and patient husband. Amen.” Then it will be an appreciated and needed prayer. But most of all, please pray that Andrew and I will courageously trust Jesus and His provisions for us and our future.

“He leadeth me: O blessed thought!  
O words with heavenly comfort fraught!  
Whate'er I do, where'er I be, 
still 'tis God's hand that leadeth me.  
 
He leadeth me, He leadeth me, 
by His own hand He leadeth me; 
His faithful follower I would be, 
for by His hand He leadeth me.”

We love you and we’re thankful for you.

-Em (and a traveling Andrew)


So.... there it is. And now we wait... and pray...

Sunday, September 13, 2009

"I know nothin' except change will come"

Good freaking goodness the Lord has moved SOOOOO fast in our lives the past few weeks! I want to talk about it... I'm a little nervous to really detail it out though until it has fully come to fruition. Friday. Friday it will fully be real. Me not posting it here will allow for grace if the Lord decides to change things up between now and then. AAAHH I can't wait to share!

Within this one week, however, here are all the things that have happened:
-Andrew turned 25
-Karleigh turned 2
-Cali's bachelorette party... lots of firsts there... *cough cough*
-Will and Cali's wedding rehearsal dinner. I think her grandaddy summed it up well "When I was a young man, you just didn't tell people how much you loved them. But not this bunch. Even the guys say I love you and its beautiful"
-Will and Cali's wedding.... what a day. Cali's mom actually had something typed up on their water bottles a phrase that summed it up (almost prophetically) "Marriage isn't about waiting for the storms to pass, its about learning to dance in the rain." CRAZY monsoon wedding.. literally.
-LOTS of sickness... even the Bride ended up getting sick. Hubby was among casualties. (feeling MUCH better today though!)
-my parents in for the weekend (always an adventure)
-saw WICKED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel like this deserves a blog all on its own. I'm off quite a bit this week trying to get caught up.. maybe I will.
-beautiful time at church this morning.
-sat in a bookstore all afternoon and re-read Redeeming Love. Almost all of it. Read page 1 to 170 something. Then moved on to where she left that final time to the end. I forgot that the first time I read it I skipped around a lot. So I caught up on all the parts I had skimmed through. Maybe another day this week I'll go back and read the meat and potatoes part that is my favorite. Although I forgot how incredible the end is... gah I love that book. I don't own it anymore though bc every time I get a copy I give it away to someone. So now I only buy it in gift form.

I am now trying to upload all the pictures I have taken on my blackberry and camera from our Charleston trip as well as the wedding and time with Karleigh. Should be good stuff when it finally finishes.

P.S. Kanye West- you are finished, bro.

P.P.S.- Beyonce can take care of herself and Jay-Z should kick your ***

Watch out for our crazy story this week!!! If you've been following us and praying thank you!!!

Monday, September 7, 2009

"This is the day that the Lord has made..."

"I will REJOICE and be glad in it!!!" Psalm 118:24

For me, today is BIG day to rejoice in because its my husband's birthday!!! He really hates attention on this particular day. Its not on facebook or anything. BUT I want him to know he's special and that this is an amazing day. =)

So in honor of his birthday, I'm going to steal an idea from our sweet friend Tracy, and list 25 things I love about my husband (since he's 25 today.) =)

25. Our story
24. The way he laughs
23. The fact that he gets so mad that restaurants are phasing out Mellow Yellow and the way he celebrates when they have it.
22. He always does the dishes.
21. As much as it drives me nuts, I miss when he is not here to leave his cereal bowl in the shower (because he eats his cereal in the shower... I know.)
20. His random Mitch Hedberg jokes that never come out right.
19. The fact that he still LOVES to play with Leggos.
18. That everyday I keep Karleigh, he says "tell the boo I said hi!"
17. His little cute voices when he's being silly.
16. His little victory dances that he would never admit to.
15. Almost our entire refrigerator is covered with magnets from the places he's been in the past 2 years. LITERALLY.
14. The way he loves his close friends.
13. That he enjoys a good library and/or bookstore.
12. He'll watch movies that are NOT guy friendly, and often enjoys them.
11. The way people talk about him when I get to go to work with him.
10. The way he's not starstruck AT ALL by the people he works with. He is CONSTANTLY surrounded by famous people and just takes it in stride.
9. The way he cares about my close friends.
8. Daisies.
7. The way he loves his Mamaw Jo.
6. How gracious he is when I just cannot get it together.
5. The way he gets better and better and BETTER at giving gifts. Its amazing. (and not in that spoiled brat way. Its the timing, the thoughts behind the gifts.)
4. When he text messages me in French.
3. When he woke up this morning and I was busy doing stuff, I found him laying in bed reading scripture. Sexiest thing I've ever seen yo.
2. If you know us at all, we make this weird noise like "mow mow" as if to say, "hi I'm here" or "whatcha doin?" or even "just in case I haven't said it in a while, I love you."
1. He is the One I was created for and I was the one created for him. The way God reinforces this EVERY single time it gets hard. To God be the Glory.

In the VERY beginning...



At a Darius Rucker/Dierks Bentley show on our anniversary this year in Charleston. (aka going to work with hubby day ;) )

Saturday, September 5, 2009

For the Brokenhearted

you know who you are. I'm with you.

There are two; both from Nicole.

“Every Season”- Nicole Nordeman
Every evening sky an invitation to trace the pattern stars
And early in July a celebration for freedom that is ours
And I notice you in children’s games
In those who watch them from the shade
Every drop of sun is full of fun and wonder
You are summer

And even when the trees have just surrendered to the harvest time
Forfeiting their leaves in late September
And sending us inside
Still I notice you when change begins
And I am braced for colder winds
I will offer thanks for what is and what’s to come
You are autumn

And everything in time and under heaven finally falls asleep
Wrapped in blankets white all creation shivers underneath
And still I notice you when branches crack
And in my breath on frosted glass
Even in now in death you open doors for life to enter
You are winter

And everything new that’s new has bravely surfaced
Teaching us to breathe
And what was frozen through is newly purposed
Turning all things green
So it is with you and how you make me new with every season’s change
And so it will be
As you are recreating me summer, autumn, winter, spring."

“Small Enough”- Nicole Nordeman
Oh great God, be small enough to hear me now
There were times when I was crying from the dark of Daniel’s Den
And I have asked you once or twice if you would part the sea again
But tonight I do not need a fiery pillar in the sky
Just wanna know you’re gonna hold me if I start to cry
Oh great God, be small enough to hear me now.

Oh Great God, be close enough to feel you now.
Oh Great God be close to me
There have been moments when I could not face Goliath on my own
And how could I forget we’ve marched around our share of Jerichos
But I will not be setting out a fleece for you tonight
Just wanna know that everything will be alright.
Oh Great God, be close enough to feel you now.

All praise and all the honor be to the God of Ancient Mysteries
Who’s every sign and wonder turn the pages of our history
But tonight my heart is heavy
And I cannot keep from whispering this prayer
“Are you there?”

And I know you could leave writing on the wall that’s just for me
Or send wisdom while I’m sleeping like in Solomon’s sweet dreams
But I don’t need the strength of Samson
Or a chariot in the end
Just wanna know that You still know how many hairs are on my head.
Oh great God.
Are you small enough?
Be small enough to hear me now."


I'm so sorry I don't have better words. These are some that He sends to comfort me.
I love you.